Sunday, December 12, 2010

可能我已经36岁了

今天出去见到很多人,是不认识的生日派队
多人却感觉空虚,不知道有什么话题可以跟人家谈,
问题是出现在自己身上吧?
(met a lot people today at a birthday party, but i feel really empty, i couldnt find anything to talk to anyone, i guess the problem would be myself?)

我总觉得在这里,我一定要变成36岁,
因为参与你的世界,您的朋友已有自己的家庭,
那种安稳在打算小孩子上那个学校的话题,
(being here makes me feel like i must immediately become a 36 yr old, in your world, most of your friends already has a family and much older, for instance they would be talking about which school is their kids are going too)

我立刻感觉到原本属于我的10年,消失了
我本身还停留在无忧无虑希望跟朋友游玩聊通宵
(it feels like the 10 years that originally belongs to me has disappeared, i am still at a phase where i still want to hang out with my friends with not a care in the world until dawn)

我喜欢那种梦想,对未来打算,工作稳稳上升,
钱也要慢慢存到30多岁,然后才开始考虑买第一间屋子
种种的成长的过程,突然间如烟消失掉。。。是太快了吗?
(i love the idea of dreaming, planning for the future, and building my career, saving money for my first house and enjoy the journey until at least 30 yrs old before im required to become 30 yrs old, all this process of growing up feels like its gone in an instant...isnt this too soon?)

一种被剥夺的东西又拿不回来的空虚
我向前走了,就不能再回头,因此可能两头都不到岸,
(it feels something has been taken away from me and i couldnt get it back, i've move forward and i cant look back, because either destination, i cant have them both at the same time)

虽然我能够回去,但我真的能够像以往一样生活吗?
就算我留在这里,但是在这里我究竟属于哪里?
(even though i can go back home, but can i still live like normal? and if i stay here, do i really belong here?)

我想到需要立刻变成36岁,但没有机会慢慢去体会长大,
我无法描述但却真真实实体会着。。。
(if im required to become 36 yrs old today and did not get to enjoy the process of growing up, i couldnt describe it but im actually feeling like it is happening to me right now)

3 comments:

yee.wean said...

我明白地。。。因為在陌生的地方我們沒有一個可以叫做‘家’的地方。是空虛地。當然身邊的人也會讓你有種不得不快點成熟起來地感覺。
你有時候太猶豫了,別想太多。當你真的是三十六的時候,你會感慨為什麼不把二十六歲活得自在點。

Grow up but never grow old!!! lovexx

ariel said...

(樓上的說得太好了)

就真的的自在的活在當下
雖然說那是一門生活的學問
我想每個人每天都在學習著

enjoy aging as you grow
抱一個
=)

jooknun said...

年齡也許到了後來已經不重要了, 重要是心境. 成熟或者長大其實不是最可怕的. 人生其實很短, 同時也很長, 你唷, 加油, 當別人都在羨慕甚至妒嫉你人在國外享受異國風情的時候, 你也要真正努力享受才對得起我們這些愛你的人才對啊~